a few things you should know about me

I believe in unicorns,

but I know they don't exist.

I've fallen in love once,

but my heart has been broken way more times than that.

I cannot tell a lie,

but I've heard more lies than I should or can take.

I cannot tell a lie,

And I doubt I ever will.

(I said that twice for emphasis)

I have many friends, to whom I'm thankful,

but most of the time I feel very, very alone.

I do what I studied to do,

but not what I should be doing.

I'm still working on figuring out what that is.

I love books,

but I read way less than I should.

I love to draw,

but I don't draw nearly enough as I know I should.

I have pale white skin,

but most of the times I'm not comfortable in it.

I love music, it is easily my religion,

but I cannot play an instrument to save my life.

(save a handful of chords on the guitar, and the "snake dance" on the piano)

I have grown up in London and in Beirut,

but still cannot decide which is home.

I cannot remember what I had for lunch a week ago,

but I can remember the phone number of the home I grew up in.

(998 9954)

I have a dog, and I know she's only a "pet" to you,

but she means a hell of a lot more to me.

I don't have any siblings,

but I've chosen my brothers and sisters.

I am young,
but oh do I feel old. So old.

I have helped put many-a-person back together again,

but cannot start to figure out how to put together the pieces that I'm in.

I dream a lot,

but don't sleep enough.

I also have my share of nightmares.

I have experienced sleep paralysis,

and would not wish it on my worse enemies.

I hope you never experience it either.

I have never broken a bone in my body,

but sometimes I wonder if that would hurt less than the things I have broken.

I treat people as I would want to be treated,

but find that not many share that ideal.

I tend to come off as a tough cookie,

but as far as I know, cookies crumble.

I have an irrational fear of cockroaches.

I really do.

I love gummy bears. I love them,

but specifically when they've been in the fridge.

I sometimes drink more than you think I should,

but never more than I can take.

I talk to myself a lot more than I should,

but it doesn't bother us.

I sometimes feel I am owed a break,

but I am constantly being dealt tough cards.

I am constantly being dealt tough cards,

but I don't know how to gamble.

I am facing a long, winding, convoluted and terrifying road,

but I'm doing the only thing I can do. I'm walking.

I should be asleep,

but I'm writing this instead.

I am wishing you goodnight,

but dawn is breaking..

I will always believe in unicorns.